It has been a rough week, and I'm not sure why. I have been apprenticing now for about 5 months, and until now was feeling pretty good about the pace at which I've been learning. My grooms, though far from perfect, have been improving, and I generally feel like I'm turning out dogs that I'm proud to give back to their owners.
Then came this week. It began with the fact that I'm finally doing poodles and just don't feel like I have the scissor control to make them look right. Then there is my speed, or lack of. I know I should be doing grooms in less than 2 hours, but for me to put out a dog that I'm proud of, I just can't seem to get them done in less. That scares me, now that I'm ready to begin renovations on the garage to turn it into my shop.
Will I be ready when the time comes to open?
Will I enjoy it when I'm working full days?
Can I turn out quality dogs?
Will I be able to handle the more difficult/aggressive dogs?
Will my body allow me to keep doing this?
All these questions keep spinning around in my head. I just keep pushing forward, hoping that all the doubts and fears will melt away as I continue to do what I'm doing. Today is better. Of course, I slept better and didn't wake up in pain during the night for the first time in weeks. I suppose only time will tell. But I'm committed now, so I'll just keep trudging forward and looking forward to being self employed.
Am I the only person who faces such a staggering lack of confidence when they first start grooming?